Life...

What am i doing to myself? I might be setting myself up for pain and sadness... again. I don't want to keep doing this to myself. But I feel like this time its right. I know that people are just looking out for me and care about me. But they don't know what I know. But what if they are right? what if its just another setup? what if i am just letting myself get hurt again? I dont know what to do anymore. If i keep going the way i am i know what is going to happen. But what if that is what is supposed to happen but i prevent it. I guess i have a lot of praying to do. PEACE!

Funny

I was reading some old e-mails and stuff and i came across these and they are funny and i feel the need to share.

1. If you're too open-minded your brains will fall out.

2. Don't worry about what people think; they don't do it very often.

3. Going to church doesn't make you a Christian any more than standing in a garage makes you a car.

4. It isn't the jeans that make your butt look fat.

5. Artificial intelligence is no match for natural stupidity.

6. My idea of housework is to sweep the room with a glance.

7. Not one shred of evidence supports the notion that life is serious.

8. It is easier to get forgiveness than permission.

9. For every action, there is and equal & opposite government program.

10. If you look like your passport picture, you probably need the trip.

11. Bills travel through the mail at twice the speed of checks.

12. A conscience is what hurts when all your other body parts feel good.

13. Eat well, stay fit, die anyway. (Just remember how lucky you were to get a free trip around the sun.)

14. Men are from earth. Women are from earth. Deal with it.

15. No man has ever been shot while doing the dishes.

16. A balanced diet is a cookie in each hand.

17. Middle age is when broadness of the mind and narrowness of the waist change places.

18. Opportunities always look bigger going than coming.

19. Junk is something you've kept for years & throw away three weeks before you need it.

20. There is always one more imbecile than you counted on.

21. Experience is a wonderful thing. It enables you to recognize a mistake when you make it again.

22. By the time the ends meet, they move the ends.

23. Thou shall not weigh more than thy refrigerator.

24. Someone who thinks logically provides a nice contrast to the real world.

25. If you must chose between two evils, chose the one that you've never tried before.

26.Light travels faster than sound. This is why some people appear bright until you hear them speak.

27.He who laughs last, thinks slowest.

28.Change is inevitable, except from a vending machine.

29.Those who live by the sword get shot by those who don't.

30.Nothing is foolproof to a sufficiently talented fool.

31.The 50-50-90 rule: Anytime you have a 50-50 chance of getting something right, there's a 90% probability you'll get it wrong.

32.If you lined up all the cars in the world end to end, someone would be stupid enough to try to pass them, five or six at a time, on a hill, in the fog.

33.If the shoe fits, get another one just like it.

34.The things that come to those who wait will be the things left by those who got there first.

35.Give a man a fish and he will eat for a day. Teach a man to fish and he will sit in a boat all day drinking beer.

36.Flashlight: A case for holding dead batteries.

37.The shin bone is a device for finding furniture in a dark room.

38.A fine is a tax for doing wrong. A tax is a fine for doing well.

39.When you go into court, you are putting yourself in the hands of 12 people who weren't smart enough to get out of jury duty.

My passion... Louisiana...

I know part of my calling in life. It is to go to Louisiana and serve the victims of the Katrina hurricanes. yes i know that was like 5 years ago, but believe it or not, things are still not ok down there.I know this is where i am supposed to be because God told me. I have been there twice in the past two years to help. The second time i went, spring break 2007, was when i found out. It was an amazing trip and when it was over i didn't want to leave. When i got back to school i was fighting with myself i wondered why am i here writing a stupid essay when i could be helping those poor people who need it so badly. I contemplated dropping out of college and moving to New Orleans and serving there. I talked to my closest and most trusted friends and family to see what i should do. To my surprise they all told me that they could tell that was my true passion and that i should do it. Even my mom told me that if that was truly what i wanted that i should do it and she would support me 100%. So here i was wanting and ready to leave school to go live in a completely different environment with absolutely no plan, and the approval of my mother. But, i didn't go through with it (obviously). What was holding me back from doing the one thing i wanted more than anything? GOD. I knew that if i was serious about this then i needed to seek the wisdom of GOD. I expected rejection, i expected him to say this is not where you belong, but once again i was pleasantly surprised by the answer i received. GOD told me that that was his plan, but not at that time, he would tell me when to go. so i know i am going i just don't know when.
Lately i have been feeling it, i want to know so bad when! but i need to be patient and trust that GOD will let me know clearly when i am ready. He is revealing more stuff to me about it and even tho it is so scary, it is really cool to be starting to know where my life is going. PEACE!

The Drama in my own head...

I am beginning to add to my own confusion. I don't understand the things going on in my own head anymore. I know i can control my own thoughts, but what about my feelings? I am unsure of what is happening, and so i don't know how to deal with it. I seek the help of my closest friends, but they can't help me because i cannot begin to explain what is happening in my head. I wonder, am i letting myself believe that the confusion of others is my own fault? I am beginning to stress myself out with this. I don't know whats going on with me. Scary. I need to take some GOD and me time and figure it out and once again understand my own thoughts.
On a different note, my namesake Glen, may be having kidney failure, and if so, my Dad is going to see if he is a match so he can give a kidney. Scary. I haven't talked to my mom in over three weeks and its starting to negatively affect my life. Anyways thats all. Peace.

Quote for the day- "If you were a kiss I know I'd be a hug."- song in Juno

Confusion...

Disclaimer: Its very late (or early, depends on how you look at it.) so this blog may or may not make any sense...

Sometimes the things that you think totally don't affect you and are normal, are actually the most confusing things. I feel like other people are the ones confusing me. They put things into my head and i begin to question my true thought and feelings. It is scary because after a while, i may not know what is my true thoughts and what is from others. I don't want to mess this up by reading into what people say. However, I would like to know if it is true or not just for my own peace of mind and my own sanity. But even if i do know, i don't think it will change. Some things are just good how they are and shouldn't be ruined by the truth. I really do not like this feeling of confusion, i feel completely lost and i constantly second-guess myself. its like I'm running behind a train and I'm like a foot behind it, but i just cant get it, but whenever i get close i am scared to grab on because I'm not sure if its really there or if I'm just psyching myself out. does that make any sense? probably not. I am just really confused right now and i am not sure if the confusion will go away soon or not. But i guess only time will tell.
I think i am being slightly over dramatic. Although, i do tend to get like that sometimes. Its hard because i completely avoided drama in high school, so now when something even slightly dramatic happens in my life, i am unsure of how to handle it because i never really did, so i tend to do this sometimes. :) o well I'll live. PEACE!

Quote for the day: " AY BAY BAY."- Anyone and Everyone.

Fear...

why are we scared of the people closest to us? The people who are supposed to love and protect us. At least for me, the people i call 'Mom' and 'Dad'. I am so scared of them. I feel like i can't do anything wrong, because if i do they will make my life miserable and unlivable. why do i think this? from experience my friends. whenever i tell my mom something bad, weather its grades or money or whatever, she makes me feel worthless and like i can't do anything right. Isn't she the one person who is supposed to love me and help me no matter what. Isn't she the one who is supposed to tell me that everything will be ok and she loves me and will support me. well that may be true for a lot of people, but mine seems to be lacking in that. it hurts because i feel like she doesn't care. yea just venting. venting.

changes...

I am starting to see a lot of changes in my life. I am changing a lot, nothing bad but just different. I guess i am starting to really actually find out who i really am. I feel myself becoming more bold in the things i do and talking to people. I am a shy person by nature, but now i am changing and i feel it. its not a bad thing but i am not sure how i feel about it. i am not the same person i was a year ago, is it a bad thing? i don't know. i think i am becoming a better person. I know it is GOD changing me for the better. He is turning me into the person that he wants me to be. But the changing is weird to me because i see it in myself and i wonder if the closest people to me can see it to. In high school i made the 2 biggest changes in my life. I decided to give my life to Christ and i went away to college. these changes caused me to lose a lot of friends. so what if the changes i am going through now make me lose more people? I don't want to lose these people who i love and are getting closer to. But i know this time is different because these friends are more like me than high school friends... so i think i will be ok. :) Peace!

Quote for the day- "Kitchen is Chicken backwards."- Ryan Abel

Trust....

Trust is a funny thing. You never know who you really trust or who really trusts you... until your in ADX/AGO and playing bounty hunter. I love that i was one of the first to go because now i am able to watch everyone else and all this semi-drama unfold. Watching it is funny, i see best friends not hanging out together because they are afraid of dying in this game. I fear this getting out of control and soon people not actually trusting each other because of this game. This gets me thinking, why do we trust people and how do you know when you truly trust someone. And, how do you know when someone trusts you? I have had a lot of trust issues in my life. In my high school days I found it hard to trust anyone. I didn't trust any friends (not that i had any) and there was a lot of family issues at the time so i didn't really trust anyone. Because of this, going to college i didn't really know how to trust. So, in my first year i found a friend i believed i could trust, but i trusted to quickly and it made my life miserable. After that i didn't know what to do, it brought me back to earlier when there was no one. But now, being in ADX i have found several people that i trust, but sometimes i feel like im not fully trusting them. I am scared tho because i have been hurt so many times by people that i ''trusted.'' how do you let go of the painful past? how do you know that the new people you are trusting aren't just going to turn around and hurt you... just like everyone else? Well i have been talking to GOD a lot about this and the thing he is telling me is to fully trust him and everything else will be easy. If we trust him he will tell us who is worthy of our trust and who is not. so trust in GOD and youll be good to go. :) Peace!


Quote for the day- "In guys looks aren't the most important thing, they have to have a good body too."- Corvette

Encouragment...

I have come to realize that i am not a good encourager. I am not graceful with words and I don't know how to give good advise. But I've realized it and accepted it. God doesn't give us all the same spiritual gifts. Although, sometimes it makes me kinda sad and even angry because i see and hear all these people being very encouraging and i know i can't do that. The worst part is when someone tells me something and i know they need to hear something supportive and encouraging, but i just sit there not knowing what to say. I have my own spiritual gift that i can use but how do you tell someone you cant help them? "oh i know your having a hard time right now but don't talk to me about it because i don't know what to say." i don't know i guess its not that big of a deal, but it still bugs me. Peace.

Quote for the day: "It ain't over 'til its over."- Toby Mac

From bad to better :)

I haven't blogged in a few days. the day before yesterday(Tuesday)= lots of unnecessary stress. Why do some people think that it is ok to put everything on one person? anyways I've talked to God about it and its not worth being bitter. But that night was good there was a lovely BI/CHI hangout (minus 3). It was nice to have the whole pledge class together again. So minus the stress of the day it was good.
Yesterday(Wednesday) was a really good day :) It started off with my uncle calling me. It was great he is my favorite Uncle and my God father. I was so happy to hear from him. Then it was off to class for me. My very dreaded Bio class was actually not that bad. 2 of the 3 labs we had to do got canceled. apparently my fellow classmates and I have a difficult emulating flies and their survival. after that i had a lovely lunch with some of my pledge sisters, Bonding time was much needed. later that night it was off to ΑΓΩ bible study. It was a really good message by Burton. Also, I was asked to ΑΓΩs banquet by Darko :) (and Ralph the rat haha).
Today was also a good day. Class wasn't that bad (for once) and i got to have lunch with my good friend Heather. Then after class I got to go to the Zoo! It was a fun trip with Lugi, Matey, Melee(Bob), and Darko. We got to spend the whole time with the monkeys and no bears! (I'm not bitter, really I'm not.) so it was a good day.
Sidenote: God is doing some great things in my life right now and I'm really excited to see how it all turns out. Peace!

Quote for the day: "Storms make trees take deeper roots"- Dolly Parton.

cuz you had a bad day...

Do you ever have just one of those days that are just blah? I don't like days like that, days like today. At almost every moment of my day i felt like crying. Nothing in particular that was happening at the moment upset me, it was just life and the past few months and just random thoughts that were in my head that were bringing me down. Then its time for meeting and I'm thinking oh great here we go have a not so good day and add on meeting that will go to 11. Needless to say i was slightly angry/bitter (nobody knew, I've become an expert at hiding it.). So I'm sitting there thinking ok God can it be over now? and BAM God like shook me and was like No you listen because i have something to say to you, stop complaining and listen. so Rarri did this amazing devo that was totally meant for me to hear. Everything she said was what i needed, the opposite is a huge part of my bad day. so now i am better/happy. Yay God! (p.s. thanks Rarri!)

On a different note... school is back! i had my first class of the week today. yay? i think so, it was sad to let spring break go, but this means one step closer to summer. ok so its like 1 amish so im pretty sure its bed time for those of us who have 8am classes. Peace.

Quote for the day: "Mama always said life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what your gonna get."- Forest Gump (Best Movie Ever!)

Try something new...

To have more adventure and fun in life, simply branch out and do something you have never done before... something new.

Lately, i have been trying new things, from going on late night escapades at 1 am, to going to metal-core concerts... friends i am doing things i wouldn't normally do. last night traveled to a metal-core show with my homies Lugi, Dink, Nasa, and a new friend Alexa. Do i listen to this kind of music on a regular bases? No, and i don't think i will be starting any time soon. I must say tho, it was quite entertaining. Watching these guys playing guitar and head-banging like nobody's business was interesting. As for the "singing" eh is was screaming. It was o so fun to watch the crazzy moshers, that looks so intense, so hats off to the moshers that is something i could never do. So this was something new for me, tho i didn't discover a new fav band, i encourage trying new things like this, because you never know whats gonna happen. You could make a new friend or discover a new hobby, or hey you could just end up having a good time with some friends. Well I am off to readying myself for the day... church, composite pic, house hangout... good times, good times. Peace.

Quote for the day: "Real friends are willing to intrude."- Toby Mac

Where is Nemo?... NOT HERE!

so spring break is pretty much over... BOO! but i guess I'm kinda glad. it was a great break tho! got to camp with the fam then had a lot of bonding time with my roomie.

My roommate and i and my pledge bro spent a lovely day at the aquarium. while PB was doing his homework thing me and roomie decided to go find Nemo. sounds plausible right? go to the aquarium and want to see a clown fish and you expect you will see one. well i guess this aquarium doesn't believe in Nemo because he wasn't there! am i bitter? no no, no no. just a little disappointed that i went in expecting to see my favorite little fish friend and realizing he isn't there. on the plus side we saw Dorey haha. it was a fun day. afterwards we traveled to the ocean to see the seals, that was fun. yea that's preety much it for that day. the rest of the week was great tho, went to the mall, hung out with friends, played a little (or a lot) of rock band. the most exciting thing tho is that all my roommates are home now yay! well that's all for now! peace!


Quote for the day: "If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans."- good ol' Clay Aiken.